Is there ever a time that you just feel alone?
I remember when I was a young mom having a houseful of littles with my own mother being thousands of miles away, feeling that I needed a hand--a friend or just someone outside of the home to direct and guide me.
I remember getting saved and praying for a mentor, a Titus 2 woman to come into my life. I prayed and prayed and God answered my prayers and brought a sound woman to teach me. She loved me, was firm, encouraged, and even rebuked me. She sacrificed her time to pour into me. Then I moved and it was hard to stay in touch and so I prayed for another woman. Just one, Lord, that's all I ask.
But for a long time God did not answer that prayer.
It was just silent.
And the silence was loud.
And I felt alone.
And more silence.
The silence was so deafening it drove me deeper into His Word. Day by day I found myself relying on Him even more and more. He was trying to show me something.....He was enough.
And now I am so glad that He did not answer that prayer right away. He was trying to teach me a lesson. I didn't need to rely on a Titus 2 woman to show me the way or to stand by my side. I needed Him. Badly. He would never fail me or forsake me. He was all that I needed. He was more than enough.
I embraced this new realization with open arms once I fully understood it, grateful that I was taught the "hard way". This truth helped me to even further savor my relationship with Him on a deeper level. It was like a toddler strengthening its legs and learning how to walk on it's own to feet!
And did you know that later the Lord brought me that Titus 2 lady I had been praying for? Yes, He did. In His own time. And she is such a wonderful blessing to this day--our relationship has truly been icing on the cake. And wouldn't you know it...He even brought more.
But I will never forget that special time the Lord showed me to walk with Him alone.
It was His gift to me.
Has the Lord been silent on something that you have been praying about lately? What do you think He is trying to teach you?